How do you handle your very heart outside of your body? It's so vulnerable and helpless. It could get squashed at any moment. It's delicate and fragile. Yet it's the strongest muscle in your body.
Even though my kids aren't "kids" at all anymore -- I can't believe they are all grown adults! It still feels like my heart is split in three different directions.
It's weird. When they are little, your heart is just out there from the get go. You never knew you could love so much. They consume your every waking moment. You teach and train, love and play. Yet, they are there beside you. Your heart is close to you.
Then as they get older, they start doing their own thing. I can feel the tug of my heart. Leaving me. Growing. They are living their lives. They are making decisions and doing things. Somethings I know. Somethings I don't want to know. But my heart! It's still out there! I can't always "make it better now" with a kiss and a boo boo bear.
My heart has to learn to be ok with things. My heart has to learn to trust in the One who entrusted them to me.
He has them. He knows them. He guides, directs. I pray and worry and then pray some more. He has control. He can hold them, comfort them.
My heart is out there. In three different places. My heart is vulnerable.
But it's also multiplied! I can feel joy 3 times over! I'm so happy for my kids....ahem.....young adults.
They make my heart happy. Ultimately I trust in the Lord. He holds our hearts. He keeps me in perfect peace.
Colossians 3:15
" And let the peace of God rule in your hearts, to which also you were called in one body; and be thankful."
No comments:
Post a Comment